Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Northeastern chill

A bit of this (Warkworth Castle - old):


A bit of this (Newcastle not-so-new Castle in the distance - oldererer):


And a bit of this (My school bus drove past this knackered old flour mill every day. Now it's a little swankier):


And family, and old friends, and food. I return to New York on Monday.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Work not entirely shit, it turns out



My, but Dubai’s weird.

You’re flying over the ocean with the fluffy white clouds, going, “Woah I love flying!” Maybe you just watched Wall-E and drank a fair bit of champagne and you’re feeling spaced out and happy. Then suddenly there’s the desert beneath you, studded by the odd tree. Then the plane turns in that scary-leany way and there’s this great big brand new city that looks like God inhaled Manhattan and sneezed. It just goes on and on. Everything is watched over by cranes. And the oddest thing of all is, they brought all the buildings and cars and Nando’s and hotels but they forgot to bring the people. Where is everyone? Case in point – airport:


But, okay. New places are always good.

Friday, December 12, 2008

A key insight

Following two days wherein I've been unable to eat or drink a thing: Asking someone with food poisoning what they think caused it is unspeakably cruel. NEVER DO IT. The damn thing haunts me night and day as it is, I don't need to be prompted into thinking about it.

I know in a couple of days I'll be back to making soup, but it seems possible right now that I'll never eat again.


The interest value of my life, and thus my blog (I write, on the presumption that my blog ever was interesting), has nosedived since my job took over my life. The thing with having a blog is, it forces you to find interesting things to do or talk about on a pretty much daily basis, so when you cease to be even remotely interesting, you become immediately and painfully aware of it. I'm not reading anything, I'm not writing anything, I'm not listening to anything. I'm just advertising.

No, wait, I'm listening to this:


video

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Full body nausea

Shaking. Throwing up every sip of water I take. Don't remember being this sick since I was a child. I want my mammy.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Soup

Tonight I was going out to a movie, so I made a pan of soup I could eat when I got in. I love this soup. It's a perfect example of a dish where the whole is so much more than the sum of its parts. It's vegan, fat-free, costs about a dollar to make, and one bowlful of it will make you feel like you've just been hugged by a friendly woodland creature. Perhaps a badger.

Pasta e Fagioli

1 can red kidney beans
250g rigatoni pasta (see below for helpful photograph)
Half a small onion
1 fat clove of garlic
Half a vegetable stock cube
Tablespoonful of tomato concentrate/puree (honestly, ketchup would work)

(I should start by saying this isn't authentic Pasta e Fagioli, but the day I have the wherewithal to soak beans overnight is the day I know I am, finally, a grown-up. At least I didn't use wholewheat pasta - my Italian housemates won't let it in the house.)

Put the beans and their juice in a decent-size saucepan.
Slice the onion into thin slivers and the garlic clove into very fine slices. Throw them in the pan too. Stir about. It looks unappetizing:










Turn on the heat.
Slosh in some vegetable stock, or rather a pint or two of water and the partial stock cube. Squeeze in the tomato concentrate. Grind in some black pepper and a teaspoon of salt.
(Optional extras: I add dried red chili because I'm wild for hot food, especially at this time of year. Again, not authentic. I also slug in half a glass of red wine if there's some open, and a sprig of rosemary if there's some around. Don't feel obliged.)
Your pasta should be akin to this:










Add it and push it down so it's covered by the fluid and will cook. Put on a lid and bring it to a nice bubble:










Option 1: Continue to bubble, covered, for 20 minutes or so until pasta is al dente. You'll likely have to top up the water once or twice so it stays on the side of soup vs. stew. And stir regularly - it sticks like a bastard.
Option 2: Turn off the heat, clamp on a lid and leave it until you want it, as I did tonight. The pasta will cook in the lukewarm fluid and you can heat it up for 5 minutes later.
Try not to eat all of it - this should do 2 girlish-size meals:











It's so cold tonight that after 2 minutes outside it feels like you're wearing a mask made of ice directly under your skin. Why, in a city prone to such extremes of temperature and right next to the ocean, did they decide to build aesthetically delightful, long, straight avenues and streets for the wind to roar down?

On the subway home there was a homeless man sitting opposite me. I've seen him before. He's appallingly dirty and fairly smelly, but not mad or inebriated, and he doesn't panhandle. I assume he was planning on riding the subway back and forth all night to stay out of the cold. When a man with a bad leg got on he offered him his seat. He wasn't bothering anyone. We were in the carriage next to the mid-train inspector or whatever that MTA person in that tiny booth in the middle of the train is. When I got off at my stop, two policemen were waiting on the platform, and they went to talk to the inspector person, who'd closed all the doors except the ones for our carriage and was gesturing irritatedly down the carriage toward where the man was sitting. I saw them stride leeringly onto the train as I walked up the stairs.

New notebook; dark water

When you got a new exercise book in school, you were always painstakingly neat, weren't you? The first crossing-out was a traumatic watershed, and it was downhill from there. Every notebook/exercise book/ diary I've owned since I was a small child has the same pattern of neatness devolving into chaos and illegible scribbles. But the one I started today, I began writing in the back, so however it ends, it'll be neatly.


I ate brunch with Marla today. It was really good to see her. Our lives are parallel lines; we always seem to be going along similar courses. She just did a photography show up in Massachusetts I couldn't go to, but I want to buy this piece. I want to dare myself to swim here. I bet there are black-eyed angels under the surface:

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Festive

"Santa got attacked, one of the elves got smacked in the face and pushed into a pram."

I'm avoiding work by reading the types of news stories I don't normally bother clicking on. It's proving to be very rewarding.

Island

Took a break from work - working late again - and read the wiki entry on St. Kilda in the Outer Hebrides. I want to go there. I want to live there. But not to eat puffins. I do want a pint at the Puff Inn, though. That's delightful.

Next year I'm going to Colonsay for a week over my birthday.

I'm working insanely hard. So much to do. So much. I have nothing to say to anyone and everyone bores me; no one is funny any more. Or did I just lose my sense of humor? Only my younger brother makes me laugh. We were in an instant message chat with my mother tonight and she got so irritated with the two of us being stupid that she refused to talk to us any more. It was like being 7 years old again.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I'm embarrassed by how much I slept this weekend. If I were an animal, I'd be a cat. I sometimes flirt with the notion that I'd be a deer, or an otter. But I'd be a cat.

The skin on my hands hurts. It's sore and feels overstretched, like it's one cold day away from cracking right open.

Little crush on this band. His voice is something else. He sounds like a gypsy. Yes, that's the song from the Gears of War 2 ad.